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FML non-fic
Feb. 17th, 2017 12:36 pmI am so frustrated right now. I am in danger of losing my job because of illness. I have been on disability leave since 5/25 per my doctor and the insurance company has fought this tooth and nail. I've followed their instructions and have been without pay for the past 6 weeks.
I even tried to go back to work in November, but was sent home because it was oblivious how much pain I was in. Two weeks ago I was sent a demand letter to come back to work, my claim was denied but I was allowed to appeal. My doctor sent in the correct forms yesterday, today I was informed via voice mail the appeal was denied.
I have barely left my house since May and am in so much pain, and my condition is supported by my doctor. Do I have to die before the insurance company understands.
I even tried to go back to work in November, but was sent home because it was oblivious how much pain I was in. Two weeks ago I was sent a demand letter to come back to work, my claim was denied but I was allowed to appeal. My doctor sent in the correct forms yesterday, today I was informed via voice mail the appeal was denied.
I have barely left my house since May and am in so much pain, and my condition is supported by my doctor. Do I have to die before the insurance company understands.
New Year Trials
Jan. 1st, 2017 07:22 pmThis is the third year that I have lost family members and I'm hoping that the universe will give me a break in 2016. This year I lost my grandmother and an aunt within a week of one another and both were unexpected. Same as in the past, my family and I are trying to soldier on, but sometimes it's hard.
Again I over estimated my word count, 150,901-60% of estimated 250k, but with the wonderful beta skills of my dear![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
masja_17 I think that I wrote some of my best stories this year. I'm going to keep at it until I reach my goal-again I'm going to try for 250k, so cross your fingers for me.
Happy New Year everyone!
Venus
Alaska 12,108
Two Alphas walk into a bar...88,181
Free your mind instead 2,315
The prints of its handlers 22,583
Happily ever after 10,499
Afraid of the fall 18,226
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Again I over estimated my word count, 150,901-60% of estimated 250k, but with the wonderful beta skills of my dear
masja_17 I think that I wrote some of my best stories this year. I'm going to keep at it until I reach my goal-again I'm going to try for 250k, so cross your fingers for me. Happy New Year everyone!
Venus
Alaska 12,108
Two Alphas walk into a bar...88,181
Free your mind instead 2,315
The prints of its handlers 22,583
Happily ever after 10,499
Afraid of the fall 18,226
Afraid of the fall part 2
Dec. 13th, 2016 12:45 pmTitle: Afraid of the fall
Artist:emmatheslayer
Author:cillab42
Other Pairing: Christian/Chad
Rating: NC17
Warnings/Spoilers: dub-con prostitution, physical violence
Summary: Jared's best friend Chad ran into trouble with one of the local crime bosses so Jared offered himself as payment.
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Artist:
emmatheslayerAuthor:
cillab42Other Pairing: Christian/Chad
Rating: NC17
Warnings/Spoilers: dub-con prostitution, physical violence
Summary: Jared's best friend Chad ran into trouble with one of the local crime bosses so Jared offered himself as payment.
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Afraid of the fall part 1
Dec. 13th, 2016 12:41 pmTitle: Afraid of the fall
Artist:emmatheslayer
Author:cillab42
Other Pairing: Christian/Chad
Rating: NC17
Warnings/Spoilers: dub-con prostitution, physical violence
Summary: Jared's best friend Chad ran into trouble with one of the local crime bosses so Jared offered himself as payment.
A/N This was my contribution to this years![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
j2_reversebang and it was fun to write so thank you emmatheslayer for such great inspiration. Check out her wonderful art work here. I also want to give a huge thanks to masja_17 for her beta skills, any mistakes found are my own. I do not own Jared or Jensen or any of the people mentioned, I'm just using their likeness for my story.
Please forgive the prominence of food talk in the story, my excuse is that I was binge watching Top Chef while writing.
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Artist:
emmatheslayerAuthor:
cillab42Other Pairing: Christian/Chad
Rating: NC17
Warnings/Spoilers: dub-con prostitution, physical violence
Summary: Jared's best friend Chad ran into trouble with one of the local crime bosses so Jared offered himself as payment.
A/N This was my contribution to this years
j2_reversebang and it was fun to write so thank you emmatheslayer for such great inspiration. Check out her wonderful art work here. I also want to give a huge thanks to masja_17 for her beta skills, any mistakes found are my own. I do not own Jared or Jensen or any of the people mentioned, I'm just using their likeness for my story.Please forgive the prominence of food talk in the story, my excuse is that I was binge watching Top Chef while writing.
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Happily ever after
Nov. 20th, 2016 11:56 amFic Title: Happily ever after
Author:cillab42
Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jeff/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 10k
Warnings: mpreg
Summary: Jeff didn't know he was looking for happiness until he found it camping on his beach.
A/N: Jeffrey Dean Morgan and Jensen Ackles do not belong to me, I'm just borrowing their likeness. Thanks tomasja_17 for betaing this. Any mistakes found are my own.
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Author:
cillab42Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jeff/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 10k
Warnings: mpreg
Summary: Jeff didn't know he was looking for happiness until he found it camping on his beach.
A/N: Jeffrey Dean Morgan and Jensen Ackles do not belong to me, I'm just borrowing their likeness. Thanks to
masja_17 for betaing this. Any mistakes found are my own.( Read more... )
The Prints of its Handlers part 2
Oct. 10th, 2016 05:37 pmFic Title: The prints of its handlers part 2 Timestamp to Alaska
Author:cillab42
Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22k
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg,
Summary: Jared has accepted his role as Jensen's mate until he found out he's left out a few details. Like pregnancy. Thanksmasja_17 for the beta. Any mistakes found are my own.
Jared and Jensen belong to themselves just borrowing their likeness.
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Author:
cillab42Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22k
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg,
Summary: Jared has accepted his role as Jensen's mate until he found out he's left out a few details. Like pregnancy. Thanks
masja_17 for the beta. Any mistakes found are my own.Jared and Jensen belong to themselves just borrowing their likeness.
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The prints of its handlers 1b
Oct. 2nd, 2016 06:17 pmFic Title: The prints of its handlers part 1 Timestamp to Alaska
Author:cillab42
Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22k
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg,
Summary: Jared has accepted his role as Jensen's mate until he found out he's left out a few details. Like pregnancy. Thanksmasja_17 for the beta. Any mistakes foun are my own.
Jared and Jensen belong to themselves just borrowing their likeness.
( Read more... )
Author:
cillab42Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22k
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg,
Summary: Jared has accepted his role as Jensen's mate until he found out he's left out a few details. Like pregnancy. Thanks
masja_17 for the beta. Any mistakes foun are my own.Jared and Jensen belong to themselves just borrowing their likeness.
( Read more... )
The prints of its handlers 1a
Oct. 2nd, 2016 06:11 pmFic Title: The prints of its handlers part 1 Timestamp to Alaska
Author:cillab42
Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22k
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg,
Summary: Jared has accepted his role as Jensen's mate until he found out he's left out a few details. Like pregnancy. Thanksmasja_17 for the beta. Any mistakes foun are my own.
Jared and Jensen belong to themselves just borrowing their likeness.
( Read more... ) part 1b
Author:
cillab42Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 22k
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg,
Summary: Jared has accepted his role as Jensen's mate until he found out he's left out a few details. Like pregnancy. Thanks
masja_17 for the beta. Any mistakes foun are my own.Jared and Jensen belong to themselves just borrowing their likeness.
( Read more... ) part 1b
This Fandom Rocks!
Jul. 29th, 2016 12:54 amThe last couple of days have been a little surreal. My BB was attacked on both LJ and AO3 because an A/B/O werewolf story was being compared to RL. I don't understand how someone in this fandom has not came across a story like this before puzzles me. Perhaps they were saving up all of their frustration and this seemed like the perfect time to vent. I really don't know why they lashed out, but I really want to thank those of you who came to my defense.
Life sucks! non fic
Jun. 22nd, 2016 11:12 pmIt seems that I can't put two good months together no matter how hard I try. I've been out of work since may because of high blood pressure issues (stage 3 renal failure) but if that's not enough my left foot is inflames by arthritis and I can barely walk. Can something good come my way please?
Alaska part 2
Feb. 17th, 2016 01:55 amArtist: evian_fork
Prompt: R1013
Fic Title: Alaska
Author:cillab42
Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 12,108
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg, dub-con
Summary: After an automobile accident left Jared Padalecki injured and his best friend dead, his parents send him to the back woods of Alaska to recover. He’s not sure what he was expecting but it certainly wasn’t a werewolf claiming that Jared was his mate.
When they reached his room Jensen was breathing hard and Jared turned towards him to tease him about being too old to climb a small flight of stairs, but when he saw the look on Jensen’s face, he knew that it wasn’t being winded that caused him to breath hard.
There was an expression of pure hunger on his face that even a novice like him couldn’t misread.
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evian_forkPrompt: R1013
Fic Title: Alaska
Author:
cillab42Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 12,108
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg, dub-con
Summary: After an automobile accident left Jared Padalecki injured and his best friend dead, his parents send him to the back woods of Alaska to recover. He’s not sure what he was expecting but it certainly wasn’t a werewolf claiming that Jared was his mate.
When they reached his room Jensen was breathing hard and Jared turned towards him to tease him about being too old to climb a small flight of stairs, but when he saw the look on Jensen’s face, he knew that it wasn’t being winded that caused him to breath hard.
There was an expression of pure hunger on his face that even a novice like him couldn’t misread.
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Alaska part 1
Feb. 17th, 2016 01:50 amArtist: evian_fork
Prompt: R1013
Fic Title: Alaska
Author:cillab42
Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 12,108
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg, dub-con
Summary: After an automobile accident left Jared Padalecki injured and his best friend dead, his parents send him to the back woods of Alaska to recover. He’s not sure what he was expecting but it certainly wasn’t a werewolf claiming that Jared was his mate.
A/N: Alaska is a place I’ve always wanted to visit, so thank youevian_fork and your wonderful art for letting me visit vicariously. I also want to give my super-duper beta (any mistakes are my own) masja_17 all of the love you deserve! Thank you so much for all of the feed-back and the help for making this a better story. I do not own Jared or Jensen, I’m just borrowing their likeness. I also want to thank the mods for another wonderful experience.
Art Link(s): LJ
Fic Link(s): LJ | AO3
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evian_forkPrompt: R1013
Fic Title: Alaska
Author:
cillab42Fandom/Genre: RPS
Pairing(s): Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 12,108
Warnings: underage (Jared is 16) a/b/o, werewolves, bottom!jared, mentions of mpreg, dub-con
Summary: After an automobile accident left Jared Padalecki injured and his best friend dead, his parents send him to the back woods of Alaska to recover. He’s not sure what he was expecting but it certainly wasn’t a werewolf claiming that Jared was his mate.
A/N: Alaska is a place I’ve always wanted to visit, so thank you
evian_fork and your wonderful art for letting me visit vicariously. I also want to give my super-duper beta (any mistakes are my own) masja_17 all of the love you deserve! Thank you so much for all of the feed-back and the help for making this a better story. I do not own Jared or Jensen, I’m just borrowing their likeness. I also want to thank the mods for another wonderful experience.Art Link(s): LJ
Fic Link(s): LJ | AO3
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New Year new outlook
Jan. 1st, 2016 08:42 pmSMPC -20,022
Spn Reverse Big Bang-19,857
SPN Big Bang 59,124
Summer Gen- 6,168
Comes a horseman- 20,895
Here comes the Groom- 4,285
Turn and face the strange 23,578
I thought 2013 was a bad year, but I had no idea what was coming my way. In 2014 I lost my mother, my brother-in-law and my pride. As I write this I am recovering from the flu and waiting for a call that my grandmother has passed.
This year all I want is to recover and come out on the other end in one piece. I have my fingers crossed on that one.
Some things did turn out well, I found a job. I hate it with the passions of a 1000 suns, but it has helped me so for that I am very thankful. Even better ,was the offer of another job with much better pay and benefits that will start on 2/16/15.
I am very excited about this.
The past two years I have woefully failed at my word count (56k this year) but I'm going to give it the old college try again this year and try for 250k.
Wish me luck.
Venus
150901 / 250000 words. 60% done!
Spn Reverse Big Bang-19,857
SPN Big Bang 59,124
Summer Gen- 6,168
Comes a horseman- 20,895
Here comes the Groom- 4,285
Turn and face the strange 23,578
I thought 2013 was a bad year, but I had no idea what was coming my way. In 2014 I lost my mother, my brother-in-law and my pride. As I write this I am recovering from the flu and waiting for a call that my grandmother has passed.
This year all I want is to recover and come out on the other end in one piece. I have my fingers crossed on that one.
Some things did turn out well, I found a job. I hate it with the passions of a 1000 suns, but it has helped me so for that I am very thankful. Even better ,was the offer of another job with much better pay and benefits that will start on 2/16/15.
I am very excited about this.
The past two years I have woefully failed at my word count (56k this year) but I'm going to give it the old college try again this year and try for 250k.
Wish me luck.
Venus
Turn and face the strange Chapter 4
Dec. 7th, 2015 01:09 amTitle: Turn and face the strange
Author:cillab42
Pairing(s):jared/jensen
Rating: NC-17
Beta: masja_17
Art: 2blueshoes
Warnings: mentions of mpreg, m/m, a/b/o, werewolves
Summary: After a night of drinking with friends, Jensen wakes the next morning with a scar that was not there the night before.
A/N: Thanks againmasja_17 for coming through again. Any mistakes found are my own. Also major thanks to 2blueshoes for the lovely art. Jensen and Jared belong to themselves, I'm just borrowing their likeness for my story. This is based on a prompt found here
Chapter 3
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Author:
cillab42Pairing(s):jared/jensen
Rating: NC-17
Beta: masja_17
Art: 2blueshoes
Warnings: mentions of mpreg, m/m, a/b/o, werewolves
Summary: After a night of drinking with friends, Jensen wakes the next morning with a scar that was not there the night before.
A/N: Thanks again
masja_17 for coming through again. Any mistakes found are my own. Also major thanks to 2blueshoes for the lovely art. Jensen and Jared belong to themselves, I'm just borrowing their likeness for my story. This is based on a prompt found hereChapter 3
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