A Kiss to Build A Dream chapter 4
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cillab42Chapter 4
Jared listened as Jensen left for work. Jared woke early to make Jensen coffee to take with him to work. These were some of the little things he was doing for him now as part of his wooing of the man. A couple of weeks ago he had heard Jensen mention a cappuccino machine that he would love to have, so he would be getting that this afternoon. Also, since Jensen had started volunteering at the animal shelter, he had been talking about these two dogs, puppies really, that had come in. They were going to be Jensen’s as well.
Jared knew he was fighting dirty, but when he saw Jensen watching him, the thought of the other man liking his body, wanting to touch it, made him hard. He wasn’t surprised though when Jensen got freaked and ran.
However, Jared finally had a taste of Jensen. He felt his dick jump and twitch under his hands. He was able to let his body give into what his mind wouldn’t let him. Heard him make those sweet little moans in his ear; coming just for him. Jared couldn’t, wouldn’t let that go without a fight. He went to sleep last night with the sound of those moans still in his head and his cock in his hand. Just as he came, he knew he had to have more of Jensen and he was going to do everything in his power to get it.
Even with what happened in the kitchen yesterday, Jared was sure that Jensen was not just going to start wanting more. But he’d had a taste and there was no going back now his conscience wouldn’t win this war. Their friendship has already been fucked up, so this was not going to end without him fucking Jensen.
Jensen was trying to avoid him, but no matter how he tried to hide at the animal shelter or at his parents this was going to happen. He only had six weeks left, and before that time was up, he was going to buried balls deep in Jensen.
After Jensen left, Jared went on his morning run. He was surprised at how tense he still was afterward, and he decided that sitting around the house was not going to help. There were errands to run, and it was pure coincidence that he had to go past the kitchen supply place that carried the ridiculously expensive cappuccino machine Jensen had been pining for.
Returning home, Jared carried in three more appliances Jensen mentioned in passing. Jensen loved to cook. And even if it was only for a short time, Jared was willing to indulge him. These were things he had wanted to do, but had never given into before.
~*~
Jared wasn’t surprised that Jensen was late that night. He didn’t even question it. Being jerked off by another man for the first time was a big deal and he probably needed space to come to terms with it. What made him angry, however, was how Jensen passed his time away from the house. Dinner. With Danneel.
When he got close to Jensen, he could smell her perfume on him, could see the red lipstick on his mouth. The mouth that he couldn’t kiss.
This was why he was in the situation he was in with Jensen now. This… this possessiveness he had no right to feel. No right whatsoever, but he did.
All he could think about was Danneel with Jensen. Touching, kissing, fucking. Since he could not put his lips to Jensen’s, he figured he had other uses for them.
Jensen had had a few beers, Jared smelled it mingled with Danneel’s perfume, and he was going to take advantage. If he was going to hell anyway, he was going to get some enjoyment from this. Last night he came in his pants, tonight would be different.
Jensen walked past Jared and went his room after dinner, but Jared was having none of that. All Jared could think of was Danneel kissing, touching what was his. As Jensen tried to get around him, he snaked his hand out and grabbed the man’s arm.
“Not yet.”
“Jared?” Jensen whispered, questioningly.
“Did you fuck her?” Jared asked through gritted teeth.
“No. I wanted to, but I couldn’t do that to her with this thing between us.”
All Jared could do was nod his head. He reached out his hand to Jensen who stood there and stared at it before grabbing it and letting himself be led to Jared’s bedroom.
Jared began undressing and bade Jensen to do the same. He wanted him naked, so he could see all of him.
He could see the terror in the man’s eyes; Jensen knew what was going to happen. As much as Jared did want to fuck him, he knew that the anger still coursing through him would not make it a pleasant experience.
But if Danneel could get his kisses, why should he settle for a one-sided hand job? Jared stood naked and hard, while Jensen was still dressed.
“Do you want me to help?” Jared asked softly.
“N, no” the other man stuttered before he began to slowly undress.
As Jensen removed his shirt, Jared stared. Those freckles he always fantasized about, well they were everywhere and he wanted to kiss them all. That was not a bad idea. He couldn’t kiss those sinful lips, but he could worship that beautiful body with his mouth.
The anger and jealously was slowly fading, soon replaced by unadulterated lust as Jensen removed his jeans and boxers. Jared huffed out a breath as he stared at the vision before him. Jensen was gorgeous. He knew that Jensen took care of himself, he exercised, and ate reasonably well and it showed. His muscle definition wasn’t the same, but god. Jensen took his breath away.
His joy was momentary squelched when he saw that the man was still soft.
“Bet you were hard for Dani!’’ He sneered.
“I was supposed to be,” Jensen snarked back.
Jared walked towards Jensen, pushing him backwards until the back of his knees touched the bed frame and followed him down onto the mattress.
“Trust me, before the night is over that won’t be a problem. You might not want to enjoy it, but your body sure as hell will.”
“Is…will….you?” Between the beers and his nerves, it seemed Jensen couldn’t voice his thoughts.
“Listen man, this is going to happen.” Jared continued. “You agreed to it. Fighting it is just going to make it bad for you. Let me make it good. I can blow the top of your head off if you let me.”
Jensen said nothing, he swallowed visibly and nodded.
Jared looked at him for a moment, wanting so badly to kiss those lips, to soothe him. Instead he kissed behind his ear, hoping that was one of his hot spots. He knew Jensen couldn’t fight the sensations from being kissed and sucked and licked along the common hot spots and Jared planned to fight dirty.
He kissed his way down to Jensen’s Adam’s apple and lightly suckled. He then kissed his way across to Jensen’s collarbone and down to his nipples where he latched onto the right one. His tongue laved and tortured the puckered flesh and he then removed his mouth and blew on it, watching it harden. Satisfied, he then moved his attentions to the other one.
Jared could feel Jensen’s dick against his leg, it was not soft, but still not fully interested. Resolved to make him hard and make him squirm, Jared licked and kissed his way down to Jensen’s belly button and dipped his tongue in. He smiled against the skin, because he could feel Jensen trying to fight his body. This was a fight he was not going to win because Jared knew how to use his mouth for more than talking.
Feeling wicked, knowing he was soon going to have a beautiful cock in his mouth; Jared licked a stripe from Jensen’s navel to his hip and sucked until he drew blood to the surface.
Then Goddamn! Jensen moaned, a moan torn from deep in his throat, broken and desperate and, in that same instant Jensen’s dick got so fucking hard.
Jared really grinned then and went in for the kill as he licked his way down from the top of the man’s hip, down the crease to the base of his cock. He watched as Jensen got even harder. Jared could barely contain himself. As he sucked the now drooling head into his mouth his last coherent thought was that he needed to remember that spot. Good thing he marked it.
When Jensen’s cock hit the back of Jared’s throat, they both moaned. Jensen started bucking his hips as Jared hollowed his cheeks to create more suction and he decided not to hold Jensen’s hips in place. He just relaxed the muscles in this throat and let Jensen fuck his mouth.
Jared opened his eyes to look up at Jensen. The man was beautiful; his eyes closed, his mouth open, moaning, lost in the sensations Jared was giving him.
Jared almost stopped when he saw Jensen start biting on that bottom lip, making it moist and red and plump and Jared wanted it around his cock. He just moaned around the one in his mouth at the thought. That earned another thrust, pushing the cock deeper in his throat.
This time when Jensen’s body tensed, Jared knew it was not because of nerves or terror, he knew the man was about to come.
“Jare, nggh.” Let him know that his instinct was true. He pulled back until only the head was still in his mouth. When the bitter taste of come hit his tongue, he swallowed, hearing a whispered “Jesus fuck!” and watching Jensen fall back on the bed.
Jared wiped his chin and made a show of licking his fingers, then pulled himself up to lie beside Jensen. Both men were panting heavily and they lay there in silence catching their breath.
Surprisingly, it was Jensen who broke the silence. “Uh…do I…you? He pointed down at Jared’s raging hard on, not able to form the words to ask if Jared wanted him to suck him off.
Jared really wanted that warm, wet mouth on him, but he knew the other man was not ready for that.
“No, not this time, let’s start slow,” Jared answered as he reached for Jensen’s hand and guided it to his dick. He could see the relief on Jensen’s face.
When Jensen’s shaking hand tentatively touched him, Jared said, “You’d think you have never touched a dick before. This is really not different from jerking yourself off. Hopefully it’s more fun.”
“I like mine a little rough Jared.” Jensen answered, ignoring Jared’s comment.
“Do I look like a girl? I promise you it won’t break off.”
Jared could tell that Jensen wasn’t comfortable holding a cock that wasn’t his own, but he was good. He slicked his fingers through the precome and used it for lube. As his fingers became tighter and more sure Jared knew he wasn’t going to last, that he was going to come before he could enjoy the fact that he finally had Jensen Ackles’ hand on his dick, jerking him off.
“God!” Was all he could say before coming on Jensen’s hand. Jared watched with heavy-lidded eyes as Jensen grabbed a t-shirt and cleaned his hand with it, a pleased grin across his face when he realized it belonged to Jared. Jensen then grabbed his clothes and walked out the room.
“Well... goodnight,” Jared whispered to himself.
~*~
The next morning was great as far as Jared was concerned; he got up early to try out the new cappuccino machine and made breakfast for Jensen. By the time Jensen had showered and headed downstairs, everything was ready. Jensen thanked Jared for the new appliances with an awkward pat on the back. But Jared wasn’t fazed. Even though they ate in silence; the atmosphere was better then last night’s tension, so Jared was happy.
By Friday, they were sitting on the sofa drinking beer, eating pizza and playing video games like old times. Jared took advantage of the relaxed atmosphere to hopefully get Jensen more involved in what was happening between them.
“Why don’t you stay with me at night?” Jared asked, the hurt in his voice showing that he’d been holding this in.
Shrugging his shoulders, Jensen answered, “With what I’m paying for the room I might as well use it.”
Jared, suddenly frustrated by Jensen’s attitude, asked, “Jensen why did you give your parents that check? I mean I know this is not an ideal situation, but you didn’t have to do this.”
“Yeah I did. Suddenly, all of my friends were not there, I had no one to help me. If I explained this situation, someone would have probably made room, but that may have been just as bad as I have no money to pay.”
They sat in silence for a while, and finally Jensen asked, “Why did you do this? Put me in this situation; force my hand? You know we’re not gonna be friends after this. You know if I had had an inkling that you had feelings for me, I would have never moved in here. I really liked you and you’ve ruined everything.”
“It’s simple Jensen, I love you. I have no other reason than that. Love makes us do crazy shit.”
“You love me so much, you’d force me to have sex with you. How is that not fucked up?”
Jared had no answer, so he just took a swig of his beer and stared ahead. After a few minutes of silence, he stood up, looked down at Jensen and nodded his head in the direction of the stairs. Jensen knew what that meant. So he chugged the remainder of his beer and followed Jared to his room.
chapter 5
Jared listened as Jensen left for work. Jared woke early to make Jensen coffee to take with him to work. These were some of the little things he was doing for him now as part of his wooing of the man. A couple of weeks ago he had heard Jensen mention a cappuccino machine that he would love to have, so he would be getting that this afternoon. Also, since Jensen had started volunteering at the animal shelter, he had been talking about these two dogs, puppies really, that had come in. They were going to be Jensen’s as well.
Jared knew he was fighting dirty, but when he saw Jensen watching him, the thought of the other man liking his body, wanting to touch it, made him hard. He wasn’t surprised though when Jensen got freaked and ran.
However, Jared finally had a taste of Jensen. He felt his dick jump and twitch under his hands. He was able to let his body give into what his mind wouldn’t let him. Heard him make those sweet little moans in his ear; coming just for him. Jared couldn’t, wouldn’t let that go without a fight. He went to sleep last night with the sound of those moans still in his head and his cock in his hand. Just as he came, he knew he had to have more of Jensen and he was going to do everything in his power to get it.
Even with what happened in the kitchen yesterday, Jared was sure that Jensen was not just going to start wanting more. But he’d had a taste and there was no going back now his conscience wouldn’t win this war. Their friendship has already been fucked up, so this was not going to end without him fucking Jensen.
Jensen was trying to avoid him, but no matter how he tried to hide at the animal shelter or at his parents this was going to happen. He only had six weeks left, and before that time was up, he was going to buried balls deep in Jensen.
After Jensen left, Jared went on his morning run. He was surprised at how tense he still was afterward, and he decided that sitting around the house was not going to help. There were errands to run, and it was pure coincidence that he had to go past the kitchen supply place that carried the ridiculously expensive cappuccino machine Jensen had been pining for.
Returning home, Jared carried in three more appliances Jensen mentioned in passing. Jensen loved to cook. And even if it was only for a short time, Jared was willing to indulge him. These were things he had wanted to do, but had never given into before.
~*~
Jared wasn’t surprised that Jensen was late that night. He didn’t even question it. Being jerked off by another man for the first time was a big deal and he probably needed space to come to terms with it. What made him angry, however, was how Jensen passed his time away from the house. Dinner. With Danneel.
When he got close to Jensen, he could smell her perfume on him, could see the red lipstick on his mouth. The mouth that he couldn’t kiss.
This was why he was in the situation he was in with Jensen now. This… this possessiveness he had no right to feel. No right whatsoever, but he did.
All he could think about was Danneel with Jensen. Touching, kissing, fucking. Since he could not put his lips to Jensen’s, he figured he had other uses for them.
Jensen had had a few beers, Jared smelled it mingled with Danneel’s perfume, and he was going to take advantage. If he was going to hell anyway, he was going to get some enjoyment from this. Last night he came in his pants, tonight would be different.
Jensen walked past Jared and went his room after dinner, but Jared was having none of that. All Jared could think of was Danneel kissing, touching what was his. As Jensen tried to get around him, he snaked his hand out and grabbed the man’s arm.
“Not yet.”
“Jared?” Jensen whispered, questioningly.
“Did you fuck her?” Jared asked through gritted teeth.
“No. I wanted to, but I couldn’t do that to her with this thing between us.”
All Jared could do was nod his head. He reached out his hand to Jensen who stood there and stared at it before grabbing it and letting himself be led to Jared’s bedroom.
Jared began undressing and bade Jensen to do the same. He wanted him naked, so he could see all of him.
He could see the terror in the man’s eyes; Jensen knew what was going to happen. As much as Jared did want to fuck him, he knew that the anger still coursing through him would not make it a pleasant experience.
But if Danneel could get his kisses, why should he settle for a one-sided hand job? Jared stood naked and hard, while Jensen was still dressed.
“Do you want me to help?” Jared asked softly.
“N, no” the other man stuttered before he began to slowly undress.
As Jensen removed his shirt, Jared stared. Those freckles he always fantasized about, well they were everywhere and he wanted to kiss them all. That was not a bad idea. He couldn’t kiss those sinful lips, but he could worship that beautiful body with his mouth.
The anger and jealously was slowly fading, soon replaced by unadulterated lust as Jensen removed his jeans and boxers. Jared huffed out a breath as he stared at the vision before him. Jensen was gorgeous. He knew that Jensen took care of himself, he exercised, and ate reasonably well and it showed. His muscle definition wasn’t the same, but god. Jensen took his breath away.
His joy was momentary squelched when he saw that the man was still soft.
“Bet you were hard for Dani!’’ He sneered.
“I was supposed to be,” Jensen snarked back.
Jared walked towards Jensen, pushing him backwards until the back of his knees touched the bed frame and followed him down onto the mattress.
“Trust me, before the night is over that won’t be a problem. You might not want to enjoy it, but your body sure as hell will.”
“Is…will….you?” Between the beers and his nerves, it seemed Jensen couldn’t voice his thoughts.
“Listen man, this is going to happen.” Jared continued. “You agreed to it. Fighting it is just going to make it bad for you. Let me make it good. I can blow the top of your head off if you let me.”
Jensen said nothing, he swallowed visibly and nodded.
Jared looked at him for a moment, wanting so badly to kiss those lips, to soothe him. Instead he kissed behind his ear, hoping that was one of his hot spots. He knew Jensen couldn’t fight the sensations from being kissed and sucked and licked along the common hot spots and Jared planned to fight dirty.
He kissed his way down to Jensen’s Adam’s apple and lightly suckled. He then kissed his way across to Jensen’s collarbone and down to his nipples where he latched onto the right one. His tongue laved and tortured the puckered flesh and he then removed his mouth and blew on it, watching it harden. Satisfied, he then moved his attentions to the other one.
Jared could feel Jensen’s dick against his leg, it was not soft, but still not fully interested. Resolved to make him hard and make him squirm, Jared licked and kissed his way down to Jensen’s belly button and dipped his tongue in. He smiled against the skin, because he could feel Jensen trying to fight his body. This was a fight he was not going to win because Jared knew how to use his mouth for more than talking.
Feeling wicked, knowing he was soon going to have a beautiful cock in his mouth; Jared licked a stripe from Jensen’s navel to his hip and sucked until he drew blood to the surface.
Then Goddamn! Jensen moaned, a moan torn from deep in his throat, broken and desperate and, in that same instant Jensen’s dick got so fucking hard.
Jared really grinned then and went in for the kill as he licked his way down from the top of the man’s hip, down the crease to the base of his cock. He watched as Jensen got even harder. Jared could barely contain himself. As he sucked the now drooling head into his mouth his last coherent thought was that he needed to remember that spot. Good thing he marked it.
When Jensen’s cock hit the back of Jared’s throat, they both moaned. Jensen started bucking his hips as Jared hollowed his cheeks to create more suction and he decided not to hold Jensen’s hips in place. He just relaxed the muscles in this throat and let Jensen fuck his mouth.
Jared opened his eyes to look up at Jensen. The man was beautiful; his eyes closed, his mouth open, moaning, lost in the sensations Jared was giving him.
Jared almost stopped when he saw Jensen start biting on that bottom lip, making it moist and red and plump and Jared wanted it around his cock. He just moaned around the one in his mouth at the thought. That earned another thrust, pushing the cock deeper in his throat.
This time when Jensen’s body tensed, Jared knew it was not because of nerves or terror, he knew the man was about to come.
“Jare, nggh.” Let him know that his instinct was true. He pulled back until only the head was still in his mouth. When the bitter taste of come hit his tongue, he swallowed, hearing a whispered “Jesus fuck!” and watching Jensen fall back on the bed.
Jared wiped his chin and made a show of licking his fingers, then pulled himself up to lie beside Jensen. Both men were panting heavily and they lay there in silence catching their breath.
Surprisingly, it was Jensen who broke the silence. “Uh…do I…you? He pointed down at Jared’s raging hard on, not able to form the words to ask if Jared wanted him to suck him off.
Jared really wanted that warm, wet mouth on him, but he knew the other man was not ready for that.
“No, not this time, let’s start slow,” Jared answered as he reached for Jensen’s hand and guided it to his dick. He could see the relief on Jensen’s face.
When Jensen’s shaking hand tentatively touched him, Jared said, “You’d think you have never touched a dick before. This is really not different from jerking yourself off. Hopefully it’s more fun.”
“I like mine a little rough Jared.” Jensen answered, ignoring Jared’s comment.
“Do I look like a girl? I promise you it won’t break off.”
Jared could tell that Jensen wasn’t comfortable holding a cock that wasn’t his own, but he was good. He slicked his fingers through the precome and used it for lube. As his fingers became tighter and more sure Jared knew he wasn’t going to last, that he was going to come before he could enjoy the fact that he finally had Jensen Ackles’ hand on his dick, jerking him off.
“God!” Was all he could say before coming on Jensen’s hand. Jared watched with heavy-lidded eyes as Jensen grabbed a t-shirt and cleaned his hand with it, a pleased grin across his face when he realized it belonged to Jared. Jensen then grabbed his clothes and walked out the room.
“Well... goodnight,” Jared whispered to himself.
~*~
The next morning was great as far as Jared was concerned; he got up early to try out the new cappuccino machine and made breakfast for Jensen. By the time Jensen had showered and headed downstairs, everything was ready. Jensen thanked Jared for the new appliances with an awkward pat on the back. But Jared wasn’t fazed. Even though they ate in silence; the atmosphere was better then last night’s tension, so Jared was happy.
By Friday, they were sitting on the sofa drinking beer, eating pizza and playing video games like old times. Jared took advantage of the relaxed atmosphere to hopefully get Jensen more involved in what was happening between them.
“Why don’t you stay with me at night?” Jared asked, the hurt in his voice showing that he’d been holding this in.
Shrugging his shoulders, Jensen answered, “With what I’m paying for the room I might as well use it.”
Jared, suddenly frustrated by Jensen’s attitude, asked, “Jensen why did you give your parents that check? I mean I know this is not an ideal situation, but you didn’t have to do this.”
“Yeah I did. Suddenly, all of my friends were not there, I had no one to help me. If I explained this situation, someone would have probably made room, but that may have been just as bad as I have no money to pay.”
They sat in silence for a while, and finally Jensen asked, “Why did you do this? Put me in this situation; force my hand? You know we’re not gonna be friends after this. You know if I had had an inkling that you had feelings for me, I would have never moved in here. I really liked you and you’ve ruined everything.”
“It’s simple Jensen, I love you. I have no other reason than that. Love makes us do crazy shit.”
“You love me so much, you’d force me to have sex with you. How is that not fucked up?”
Jared had no answer, so he just took a swig of his beer and stared ahead. After a few minutes of silence, he stood up, looked down at Jensen and nodded his head in the direction of the stairs. Jensen knew what that meant. So he chugged the remainder of his beer and followed Jared to his room.
chapter 5